#which no pressure on any of you guys to answer them! even tho i do still admittedly look forward to replies eventually--

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

-✧{𝓑𝓮𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓒𝓱𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓶𝓪𝓼 𝓖𝓲𝓯𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰}✧-

{these are so shamefully overdue lmao, and part of me would still love to send them out individually with a bit more flavor, but-- i've also realized that i just might not be able to find the find the juice for that... so instead, i'm posting a majority of these belated gifts below the cut, "tagged" to the muse they're intended for~}

First up, for Souji~ { @akumanoken }, Micchan predictably went extra-- and ended up getting like three whole outfits-- with plenty of accessories too lol

All of which are admittedly probably not something warm enough to wear out for a date given the season, but... Micchan would have zero objection to Souji picking one for an in house "date"--

Next up, for Caleb~ { @cuteteacakes }, ya boi didn't go quite as extra-- But hopefully a cute jacket, hoodie, and pair of squishy friends make for a good enough bunch u w u

And a bonus mention here for Jackson~, because while Micchan did only happen to pick out one gift for him... It does happen to be quite the nice fountain pen--

{additional pics of which can be found here, and here~}

Meanwhile, for Shizuma { @shizumaikushima }, Micchan admittedly couldn't find as much stuff as he would've liked... But, ya boi did at least come away with a trio of shirts he felt his boyfriend would look good in--

Plus, a night in, or heading out for a little date somewhere is always on the table as a bonus too~

And now, to close out this post-- i've got bonus mentions for @nacreousxhearts , @meretrixious , and @malafxde because while Minato would've loved to get his Nii-san, and Remy something-- i just could not manage to find any ideas back when i dug up all these-- So, i'm more or less putting an IOU on those gifts, until i can hopefully think of something that'll fit the bill lmao. And as for Gabs, we do actually have a couple small gifts ready for her~! I just didn't include them here, because there's plans to exchange them in return for an old gift ask i still have waiting in drafts~💕

[zablife]

This is not really a request, but more of an idea that I just had, so please feel free to ignore this and don’t feel pressured to respond or write anything!! :)

I loved the ‘Johnny defending you’ fic so much!! This is based off how the fic mentioned that they recognized the reader from the bar a couple months ago! I was thinking that maybe the first time she went to the bar, Johnny saw her and pretty much almost fell in love with her at first sight but he thought she was too young for a guy like him :( and she was also hanging off the arm of the rowdy ‘kid’, so he didn’t talk to her or anything (maybe he also thought she seemed too sweet and out of place hanging out with the group of rowdy asses, let alone dating one). After he kicked out the rowdy group, he assumed he would never see her again so he tried to think nothing of it (but then he does!!)

Idk if this makes sense at all! Again, feel free to ignore this :)))

Hi lovely, I'm so glad you enjoyed Imagine Johnny Defending You. Tysm for this incredible bonus thought which has me feeling so soft as I envision protective Johnny wanting nothing more than to make you his so he can love and care for you properly 😍

Now I can't stop picturing the way Johnny's eyes dart toward you the moment you walk into the bar, unconsciously memorizing every detail about you. He immediately reasons you’re much too young for him, wide eyes and fidgeting hands making you appear like a lost child rather than a woman. But there’s a quiet sweetness to you as well that can’t be denied and he’s powerless against your charm.

It isn't something you're aware of at first, stumbling at the threshold as you clutch your boyfriend's arm to keep from falling. He never breaks stride to check on you, dragging you along with a warning to hurry up and insisting he'd rather leave you outside when he meets the leader of the Vandals, if only he could trust you not to act like a whore.

It makes Johnny seethe with anger to hear the way he talks to you, not to mention his overall lack of care for you. He quickly notices that you're shivering beside the young biker, leaning into his arm for a hint of warmth which he never seems to return.

As the punk makes his demands of Johnny, the older man can't help but think of all the things he'd rather do for you instead. If it was up to him, he'd throw these assholes out, make you sit down and eat a good meal bc it doesn't look like you've had one in weeks. Then he'd lead you to the back room to sleep off whatever drugs you're on bc that glassy stare is beginning to worry him. And even tho you glare back at him when he finally catches your eye, he manages a small smile. He knows you’ve been in survival mode too long to recognize genuine concern, but he wants so badly to show you what real love feels like.

As Brucie jabs him in the ribs for his final answer, Johnny rejoins the conversation. “Nah, we don’t take kids.”

As the kid begins to protest, Johnny ventures one more glance at you with a dull ache growing in his chest. Suddenly he realizes he can’t change any of this sickening reality and the thought fuels a new wave of rage.

“I said you ain’t fucking welcome here!” he shouts, slamming his fist on the table.

The pool game in the corner halts as a few beer bottles crash onto the floor, shattering at your feet. Johnny has to look away as you flinch in response, suddenly ashamed of himself. He watches crestfallen as the Renegades stomp from the bar, taking you with them and out of his life forever.

[bambisnc]

OK! [or, group projects w riize]

pairing : ot7 x reader! genre : fluff with crack delicately lined in cw/tw : food mention + use of caps wc : idk ,,

shotaro ,. ! - the mood maker!! - is the person who Socializes, helps to coordinate between the members, makes the gc, arranges meet-ups; just overall supportive and cheerful even if your team is doing literally nothing and is very likely about to get an F (D:) - shows up w like cut fruits for everyone, goes on coffee runs + writes encouraging lil messages on sticky notes and leaves them around/in notebooks etc etc - also x2 i see him as someone who like,... doodles on your people’s hands :( draws a smol star and writes something adorably cringe like “ur my star ^-^”

eunseok ,. ! - he’s the type of guy who’d take charge and delegate work to everyone; to put it simply : BOSSY AF. dare i say dictator coded even, but hey, he just wants this to get over with yk?? - bit scary to work w at first but when if he warms up to you he might would definitely indulge in a lot of partiality; assign you the easier tasks/the tasks that you prefer + if someone pisses him off he would, w the nicest sweetest smile ever, assign them the worst possible task.. - can be bribed if you offer to help w his work though sooo :) do w that what you will :) 

sungchan ,. ! - trust on me this, he’d be the one who’s always “busy” except in his case he probably fr is bc my guy is just into That Many extra curriculars - you call him up like hey where are you we’re supposed to meet at *insert name* coffee shop rn?? and he’d answer w all seriousness that his “rap music club members have a mandatory team exercise for which they’ve gone fishing and after he needs to prepare an ad for the video game club because he kinda insulted the ad making team and now they’re all on strike . oh and he has football coaching (as in he needs to coach like a bunch of tiny kindergarteners as a favor to some aunt) right in between!” - he’ll send all his work at like 4am tho dw ^^ sleep is for the weak.

wonbin ,. ! -perfectionist!!! he would be The aesthetic stationery + supplies guy with like pouches and pouches of pretty washi tapes, metallic coloured calligraphy pens, stickers and much more - would definitely call out people if their handwriting was bad.. - also he would totally use the project as an excuse to get to know whoever he’s interested in~ might offer to split the work into like duos and immediately choose you as his partner~ - prepare yourself for a lot of really obvious and goofy flirting..

seunghan ,. ! - ah yes the wise guy (genuine) (no why does he fr know everything about Everything) - puts out the most thought provoking, viewpoint shaking, world stopping arguments then half-slumps over the table and or rests his entire weight to lean on you and mumbles something about wanting to watch shin-chan >< he’s versatile (read : cute) like that - also would quite honestly go along w any idea no matter how bad it is <3 + seems super calm and composed but watch him be the most excited when taro suggests some team bonding at an arcade/festival :( <3

sohee ,. ! - he gives me manages stuff best under high pressure situations - if you’re freaking out about one of your teammates cough cough you can guess who it was having fumbled up and accidentally written down the wrong date and oh no your project is due tomorrow?! don’t worry! he’s got this :D - procrastinator at heart but for the right persuasion tactics done by ahem a certain someone (it’s you) he’d probably give it his all <;3 - also he’s an enabler at heart.. supports the ideas which he knows are going to be a trainwreck just for funsies

anton ,. ! - :(( he is Doing His Best okay - gets a bit overwhelmed due to the rising panic and chaos + leads to people being very partial to him but honestly yk he deserves it <3 - also a rich guy tm, would definitely ahem ahem pull some strings to get some extra fine quality materials~ - feel like he’d be good at research work + another 4am worker would definitely pester you to join zoom calls or ft you and be like hey!! look at this!! i did this!! is it good!! - as an excuse to show off to yuo splurges a lot for an end of the project celebration for sure

notes : inspired by very very real life events (wrote this in a zoom meet w my current group proj members ehe)! if you know me irl and feel like these are based off of you.. they're not!! you're simply hallucinating!!!! <333 + [m.list]

[teeth--king]

no pressure to answer but i'm curious about how much and in what ways wolfe changed since moving into the valley, like how he was right before and how he develops as time passes, maybe even well into the future? what were the biggest catalysts for his development like getting more comfortable with people and all? what are some things he struggles with currently? anndd how was his life growing up? (skip anything u dont have an answer for or dont wanna share lol)

Thank you so much asking! I'm always so happy to talk more about my guy here! Sorry if it's a bit unruly, my brain is a bit of a mess right now but I do want to talk about this especially since I got myself to make some messy art for it.

Putting this under a cut just for neatness in case it's too long.

Forgot to add kid Wolfe to the art but that's cool, the main stuff is about his adulthood anyways. But when growing up Wolfe was neglected in a non physical, but emotional/mental way. He had to always be what his parents wanted and would be their emotional sponge, causing him to grow up to be more silent and impulsive to put others before himself. The few times he would go to his grandfather's farm, and then home after getting too old to continue to care for the farm, were some of the few times he got to live a little more freely.

Before coming to the valley he was extremely depressed and dysphoric, he dropped out of his marine biology studies due to mental health, because of this his parents disowned him and stopped helping him with any forms of financial burden, so for the next year(s) he became unhappily employed at Joja to help cover living and repaying loans. After having a breakdown from everything weighing too much on him, he decided to take his grandfather's offer of a farm as a way to start over as the true version of himself.

When first in the valley, Wolfe tried too hard to present himself in the way he wanted to be instead of in the way he actually was, because of this he was and came off as anxious. Constantly double taking and forcing himself into and out of situations. He was indeed growing in the way he desired, but at the same time, accidentally stunting his growth due to his own actions and negligence. Finally after making some bonds and friendships he started to actually feel like apart of the community and started to stop forcing himself to be something he wasn't and develop naturally.

Finally more current Wolfe, he's much more confident and comfortable with his part in town but still deals with his fears and anxieties revolving around himself and others. Suddenly growing a sprout was a bit of a set back as it was a new way for him to feel othered, but this was not as much of a set back as he had people to fall back on for support.(sprout is a whole other thing, technically a magical parasite from him messing with magic too much on the farm)

As for future tho, I'm still work shopping that portion.

His biggest catalyst for dealing with people and himself, is himself. He does tend to have a negative mindset and will make assumptions of others before honestly learning about them. Any form of confirmation of his fears has a chance to make him spiral and start to close off again. He does require help from others to get out of this spiral as he can get caught in his own head, which would only make it worse. Despite being appreciated in town and working smoothly with others, he is doomed to always have a creeping fear that it will all crumble away because of him.

Thank you again for asking and let me know if I missed or glossed over anything, my mind is a bit scattered so I would not be shocked if I did so(and apologies if I did).

[bartholomew-junior]

23 25 26... hmm. maybe sips ANd erina And gothi (unless you dont feel like that feel free to just choose one of them cause. 6 entire different answers to think) <3<3

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE thank u circular 4 ur boon of kindness. it is appreciated. apologies for the wait, as i had to let the ideas for this ripen be4 properly answering. i’m gonna start the first ask off with gothi from ep.10.

first of all, i just love her mask and am permanently sad that she never gets to wear it again. bonus for foreshadowing face reveal a few episodes down the line and making her an incredibly ominous cryptid like presence kind of. i just think she’s neat. next is erina in ep.32:

honestly i was really tempted to use a frame from when she was xanu possessed cuz it looked real fuckin cool, but i think this one’s more meaningful. she’s sympathizing with sips for once instead of trying to one up him (at least after a bit) and realizing how tough shit must’ve been for him. agh they make me insane. next is sips from ep.15:

from right after he ate bou claire’s heart. the buildup narration to him looking into the mirror is, ,, agghhh. the fact this was used to promo merch is funny also.

now for q. 25: technically, my first impression of gothi was her getting sips to do karaoke while drunk (lol) and that being the catalyst for EVERYTHING (this campaign is the equivalent of a snowball rolling down a hill). but now, it was her kind of managing and trying to quell sips’ anger best she could along with erina.

erina was just a memelord to me lol. sips wasn’t in the best condition the first few episodes, so my first impression was just that he was a bottomless pit of rage. now looking at the early episodes feels like looking at alpha minecraft in comparison to 1.21, especially without xanu or abby. sneeze was just a little guy.

ok freebie question time. i’m gonna pick q. 22 even tho there hasn’t been a new fic at all on ao3 since i updated my own fic (which makes sense considering we’ve kinda already met the goal of the series even if there’s a lot of stuff on the horizon). and i’ll pick all 3 of them + xanu for this cuz. why not

sips: a lot of the fics on ao3 4 this fandom are oneshots, so there isn’t much they’re able to explore if they’re low word counts, but my dream sips-centric fic would be like. a collection of missed/deleted scenes from his early life and time in ammurin with a kind of dream/void/death motif. bonus points if he’s trans

erina: i haven’t seen ANYTHING about her early life in kylandria being the child of busy royal entertainers, hell even her weapons are like a carnival trick, so i’d really like to see a bit of early life stuff again. are you sensing a trend. also her just dealing with royalty is fun and i have many ideas

gothi: early life again. listen she was a whole ass princess who was allowed to exist only because of her rank she was under so much pressure all of the time, especially with being buddies with xanu. did she ever talk to another defective foreclaimer. who are her parents. did they love her. ugh. also, seeing her interact with vicky is something i haven’t really seen before, so that’d be fun.

xanu: listen. i feel like he’d be the hermit on the high mountain type never interacting with anyone like thanos after killing half the universe. also, i feel like a lot of aspects of his character get discarded in favor of making him easier to digest and write, which i’ve done, and this does not do him any service. i think making all the fools gold cast kind of,, mlp headcanon designified is also fun and i want to do it. also bonus vicky

in conclusion: thank u circular <3333333 :]] :), i hope this isn’t miserably long. i’ve been all worded out for the day. do u ever think abt how vicky and sips are parallels and

[the-moon-lullaby]

MCL's Headcanons requests OPEN !

Hiii ! MCL is coming to an end (and MCL New Gen is coming, isn't that exciting ?) so in the name of the good old days I wanted to go and write some headcanons about our dear LI (also because I need to do something else rather than writing essays for uni but that's a whooole other story). I remember enjoying writing about MCL back in the days (I even wrote a fic that's how much I enjoyed it I guess) so why not do it again with another format ! Feel free to send me your requests and I'll do my best to answer it !

Little disclaimer before tho :

I won't write about topics such as abuse, self-harm,etc... (the world is already negative enough, we don't do that here guys). Nothing against a little angst ofc but let's keep it entertaining as the goal is not to make anyone feel down after reading these headcanons. This is a safe space so let's keep it that way ;)

The more specific the better ! That way there's no misunderstanding and your request will be properly completed (no harm in being a little vague but hence the result might be too) + specify about which opus you're referring to (High School, Uni, Love Life, etc...)

I will write trying to stick to the characters as they are in the game but you know, I do have my own opinions and perceptions of them so I hope you don't mind if I allow myself to let it slip here and there.

NSFW's okay (no shame in spicing things up, right ?) but it'll resonate with the first point : I won't write about abusive scenarios or anything as such so as long as you're not requesting about things like that, everything's fine ! However I'd rather if it doesn't become the main content of this blog so please keep that in mind.

No need to send your request multiple times, don't worry one is enough

And just a little reminder that this is entirely for entertainment (no pressure, see ?)

Just so you guys know, I have a soft spot for wholesome/fluff headcanons but I also love angst (and that's a nice contradiction) but that make sense since I am a Nath's girl I guess ?

I might do some prompts in the future so if you have some ideas, please don't hesitate to share them. In the meantime, I'll try to find a list of nice prompts :)

If you have any questions, feel free to ask them and I think that all there is to say !

Byeee

Evelyn

[adamnablelittledevil]

@probablynottola thank you for tagging me! I love this games and also love Ted Lasso! I almost used it here, but thought the answers would be too repetitive so went with something different hehe.

Rules: Choose any three fandoms (in random order) and answer the questions, then tag 10 people you want to know better

@black-market-wd4o, @voiddusk, @kaokhss, @ellavrena, @jaypentaghast, @andy4yippee, @unhinged-nonsense, @gayboymolloy, @hearfrost, @waterghoulcalamity

P.S. As I edited this on my drafts, some of the blogs I'd successfully tagged got unmarked and I don't know why? So I'm keeping it anyway in case it does show up on the notifications or people see it on their dash and want to play. No pressure tho. ^^ x

I choose:

Interview With the Vampire.

Stranger Things.

Shadow and Bone (going with the books because I'm not caught up on the show, but I did love season 1!).

The first character you loved:

Lestat, but things shifted pretty quickly to Louis, Claudia, Armand, Louis again and so on... But I guess he was the first because I wish I had his confidence.

El.

Alina.

The character you relate to most:

I relate to a lot of things with all of them, the least would be Daniel, but I still have one or two things in common with him. It's hard to say, but I think Claudia is a safe choice. She's definitely one of them and could definitely be the very first.

Will.

It depends, but Alina or Genya.

The character you'd slap:

ALL OF THEM except Claudia.

Lonnie. Would happily kill him with my bare hands.

The Darkling. Would happily give him the slowest, loneliest and most painful death in the world tbh.

Three favorite characters in order of preference:

Like I said, at this point it really depends on the episode. Sometimes I don't know who to choose even on one scene with just two people. Things are that balanced for me, which is a testimony of how mind-blowing the acting and writing are on this show. It's so satisfying to not be able to choose because all the options are amazing, I hope that never changes.

Will, El, Mike.

Alina = Mal, Genya.

A character you liked at first but don't like anymore:

Santiago. I hate him as a person, love him as a character, cheered when he died and applaud Ben Daniels for his amazing work. All reactions can and do coexist in me.

The only one I can think about is One? I mean, he is supposed to be the character you root against because of spoilery reasons, but I did like him at first. And I did see that plot twist coming from miles away. And it was still one of my favorite scenes from all time anyway because it was that powerful to see. Emmy material. And while I root against him, I still love him as a character. Wow. Such an upgrade in that category of specific type of characters. I love it.

I don't think there's one? Now that I'm thinking about it, I believe this story actually didn't have any traitors or characters that frustrated me? I started and finished the books loving/hating the same people, the only ones that I changed my opinion about grew on me after their development, never the other way around. Unless I'm forgetting something.

A character you did not like at first but now do:

Armand. It was more of a neutral opinion than dislike or hate. There wasn't much to know about him on season 1, but now... I'm obsessed. Assad is a wonderful actor, he stole the scene several times and gave me some of my favorite moments in the history of television.

Steve. I think the writers didn't know what to do with him at first, so he behaved in bad ways that really don't make sense with the person he turned out to be. It wasn't even like "wow, what a great character development", because he has absolute no signs of that guy anymore. It just feels like a totally different character at this point, but in a good way. He's my favorite among the teenage characters.

Zoya.

Three OTPs:

So I don't have OTPs that easily, it depends a lot on the writing, chemistry and the characters having a good amount of screen time for a pairing to get on OTP level for me. But here we go:

OTP

SHIP that has potential to become otp depending on future development

Ship I like and I root for, but some things are still missing for me OR there's probably not enough time left for it to become a full otp at this point

LOUSTAT? Okay, these two I'm not sure if they are a ship or straight-up OTP to me, I'm still figuring it out, but they're my favorite so far. Also, the church scene and the hug are my top 3 of favorite scenes on the show and some of my favorite on anything I've ever watched. I think Loustat will go down in history not only as one of the biggest pairings on TV shows, but also as the only one that fully explored all the depths of a relationship and even the depths of existence for the characters as individuals. The good, the bad, the ugly, the complicated. There's nothing else out there with that caliber of writing, chemistry, details and layers. At least not so far. And I'm in for it. ARMANDIEL, I need more time, but I'm invested. I haven't read the books, but everything I hear about Devil Minion sounds so compelling. And that scene with young Daniel is the other scene from my IWTV top 3. It's one of my favorite scenes ever as well. The chemistry was out-of-this-world and I hope they develop their dynamic on both timelines. LESMAND, I need more and I'm incredibly invested too. Everything about them on the books just sounds so insane. That scene they had alone, the chemistry was fantastic and so hypnotizing... They could be as explosive as Loustat, but in a totally different way if the writers want. I'll probably still root for the endgame ships, because that's what they'll spend more time with anyway, but I could accept any, each and everything they give me because the chemistry between all the duos is that incredible. Even Loumand, that sank pretty fast in the narrative, I loved their flirty and courtship phase so much. I'd also accept a large polyamorous ship if they gave me, but we know those vampires would kill each other and themselves because they can't really share lol. But I'm just enjoying the ride and having a great time.

BYLER, Jancy, Elmax.

MALINA, Genya x David, Nadia x Tamar (tbh that's the only other ship I remember/think that exists on the books and I'm neutral, but Nadia is AWESOME and I love her).

[dropthedemiurge]

15 people, 15 questions

Got tagged by @xagan (you're amazing and I already knew it but what is Lima Lama?!) and @istilldontunderstand (all hail being jack of all interests and useless to capitalism! very relatable) and @non-binarypal7 (didn't know you eanted to do environmental activism! That's so cool)

1. Are you named after anyone?

No, I have one of the most typical names in my country. But it's good that every person has several nicknames here, I have more than 15! 😆 And I love my name because it's unisex.

2. When was the last time you cried?

I don't usually cry in life beside RSD triggers so I allow myself to feel things while watching movies and reading fanfics... Probably shed a tear recently during 5th episode of Twins (hello to exhausted, overworked and underappreciated Sprite)). Honestly, some good angst fics do make me cry, I love angst fics and catharsis.

3. Do you have kids?

No, and I'm not good with them until they are the age where I can teach them many hella cool nerdy things. But I'm learning now with my sister's toddler, I'm out of my comfort zone but she says he likes me already so I win xD I can definitely see myself as a good mentor to kids/teens later but parent? Probably a bad one.

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

I have ADHD so I have tried swimming, martial arts, ballet and gymnastics. I was kicked out of 2 of those xD But I do love table tennis, like volleyball and I was acrobatic cheerleader for a few years!

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Yeah, I love using it in a very playful manner among friends - which is not a typical thing, as I know. On the other hand, when I get angry or someone hurts/attacks me, I actually turn to a very cold, official and diligently spelled out style. Hurt my feelings? I am writing you a letter aka A.Burr :D

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Their vibes! I might not remember how they look or what's their name later, but I'm definitely noticing and reading you through vibes. Same with discords, most likely.

7. What’s your eye color?

Grayish blue. I get told that I have really nice eyes (even strangers in foreign countries keep telling me that for some reason unprompted). My friends, tho, say I have drugged eyes with large pupils so i guess, that's compliment too xD

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Horror movies are porn substitution, and I'm ace so the answer is obvious. Deserved happy ends are good!

9. Any talents?

Hmmm being always curious and hence, learning many new awesome skills? It's something I always encourage others to do, too.

10. Where were you born?

Russia unfortunately or fortunately? i'm still figuring it out

11. What are your hobbies

Creating media+tech things (ranging from IG filters to making my own mini games), translating (Russian, English, Korean and currently learning Thai), drawing fanarts (one day hopefully webtoons...), writing fics (currently learning nice storytelling in English)

12. Do you have any pets?

Yes, a very fluffy black-white Cheshire Cat. He's as mischievous as you can guess ^W^

13. How tall are you?

1.65

14. Favorite subject in school?

Informatics, Arts, sitting in school library and reading everything after classes

15. Dream job?

I have a bucket list of all skills/professions that I want to try, and I've currently crossed off most of them, except for gamedev. I ever wrote articles about K-pop and Thai BLs professionally!

I keep changing jobs every year oops but I still manage to be not bad at them. I think I can suit some place that needs brainstorming, making art and coding together! But it's a career that I'm trying to kickstart now Тт For now I'm a bit too busy with returning to Korea...Hopefully, one day I'll stop getting bored of jobs ^^'

That was fun, thank you guys! Not tagging anyone to save from pressure but you can tag me to read through yours or tag yourself with my blessing :]

[stygianheart]

inspired by your post asking for headcanons, i, in fact, do not have any to give you. i do come with questions tho!!

will koby like. ever get used to being around luffy? like one day he'll blush a bit less, in the very least. also is the easy and super red blush a koby thing or a koby-being-like-that-specifically-about-luffy thing?

ALSO UNRELATED TO THAT BUT is koby always in the verge of breaking down? after the chapter where he's (rightfully) very pissed and screams about the situation they're in, it got me thinking if it was not just what was happening that caused that reaction, but also weeks or more of constant stress he has to keep in check frequently, or else he'll snap just as bad/even worse as he did that day.

(when i say stress it's more like... beyond his profession? like not only about his job but other things too, as minimal as they are, that keep adding and make him have to keep a great hold of himself to not break.)

Even better, questions. I adore questions, it gets the rusty gears in my head moving.

*pulls up chair and desk* YAY NOW TIME TO ANSWER—

Fortunately for Koby, he will finally get used to being around Luffy. Might take a while, since they’ll have to meet up in secret, but one day, he won’t be a tomato every time he sees Luffy. Though personally, I feel like he’ll still blush a smidge whenever Luffy compliments him, which ties into the next question. Since it’s practically canon that Koby is an ex-crybaby, I like to think that he gets flustered by compliments from anyone quite easily, not just Luffy. However, him turning EXTREMELY red is a Luffy-Only reaction, one that Luffy probably likes a whole lot.

As for the second question: yes. Koby’s a young man of his pretty high status, so he feels like everything had to, while not being perfect, he as close to it as possible. He’s like a naturally stressed out and worried guy, and as the top ranking officer of his own ship, he has the weight of at least a couple dozen marines’ lives in his hands. He feels like it’s his duty to make sure that everyone on his ship is safe (hence him jumping off a cliff with a bomb in his hands.) But during this mission with the Straw-Hats, it’s a different type of pressure/stress. As we know, it’s been Koby’s dream to be a marine since god knows what age, Oda’s never told us. Yet he’s coming to face the harsh truth (once again) that his dream heroes (the Navy/Marines) aren’t as perfect as he grew up thinking they were: they’re corrupted and negligent to those of lower status, and rather biased. Koby, as a *cough* friend *cough* of Luffy, probably doesn’t completely understand why the Marinez hate him so much, and as the hours tick by, he’s only discovering worse things about the people he used to idolize. Which will likely lead to Koby confronting the higher-ups when all is said and done. Who knows. Maybe he’ll blackmail them into allying with Luffy.

Thank you SO MUCH for the ask!!!!!

[sayakxmi]

[Magi rewatch] Episode 14: Alibaba’s Answer [Part 2]

With no context it's like they're just chatting

This is still so fucking hilarious. The fact that he just went and said, yeah, pretend we didn't lose any right and all that, pretty please

She needed a moment to process it.

I feel like the manga showed better how Alibaba's 100% aware his argument is bullshit, but this one might be a bit overthinking on my part. In the manga simply Alibaba's and Ka Koubun's thoughts align, where here we only get Ka Koubun being like this is bs, and Alibaba thinking the argument is forced. It's not as jarring as many other changes, but can be misunderstood if you're not paying attention.

When the princess actually decides to tell the Emperor about some bratty prince's pseudoarguments, rather than disregard them entirely right away.

It's a slight difference here. In the manga Alibaba thinks more about Kougyoku's lack of authority and the fact that she doesn't want to get married, while in the anime he comments how she folds easily under pressure, and then the marriage thing. Obviously, I like the manga version more - there's more of Alibaba understanding the circumstances, but the anime isn't that bad either, as it frames it as him just being able to read her that easily.

One day his bs will save your country, you don't even know

Still, you gotta appreciate the fact that she didn't actually fold that easily.

Also, yeah, yeah, Kougyoku spam. She's my beautiful daughter, I'll do what I want.

Your time to shine, Womanizer of the Seven Seas (fuck you, tho, not literally)

But also Jesus fuck. I wasn't sure bc of the wording, tho looking back, yeah, it was obviously that, but he's just saying that, yeah, Balbadd's joining the SSA, so it'd be hard for the Emperor to try to conquer Balbadd, and I'm like, bro, you've been waiting for this moment.

Ok, a change, in the manga Sinbad is surprised to have Alibaba join in. And also Alibaba is, once again, much calmer about it. Here he does kinda look like he's clutching at straws, while in the manga he was talking like it was obvious, how did you not know about it?

But also, it does make me think about that time he later used Sinbad's name to get the pirates sent to Sindria, rather than potentially becoming slaves and all that. It's kind of funny. But in his defence, Sinbad started, and he just rolled with it, and also later did the same again, so.

God, she looks so tired.

Can't blame you, girl.

Grl no

The way he's just running after her yelling "Himegimi! Himegimi!" XDDD

"This really just happened?"

The way his shoulders just fell

Proud dad

Honestly, that's a really sweet moment

Shame it's about to get really, really bad soon

Grl no

GRL NO

NO GRL NO HE'S AN ASSHOLE

Live Ka Koubun reaction

Ok, so, stuff changed. In the manga Alibaba tells them more to do, Sahbmad & Barkak included, while some stuff is skipped, which, alright, but then we have Barkak being like, yea, people will call for our execution alongside the previous kind, so let us atone for our sins by death, and like ???? First of all, in the manga it's Alibaba who says that people will want 23rd executed, but he'd rather send him to be held in confinement, since he still doesn't want to kill his own brother, and then he's like there's no laws yet, anyway. In the naime there's, like I've said, this whole Barkak being yo so we're gonna die, too, k, and Alibaba's like how about no there's no laws for it anyway, I need you guys to help build a republic, and like. Is it for the sake of drama or what. Also he kinda makes it sound like he wants 23rd to help, too, he doesn't even mention the confinement.

Kinda lmao

speech time

Huh, I thought it'd be a bit longer, but we cut to Banker really fast

I mean. It looks a little silly. I know it's about there being a lot of them, but it looks like these birds are simply that big

I can't believe Aladdin just exploded

Bye bye, Aladdin!

Ok, back to speech. And also the building is so pretty.

How loud is he speaking, actually.

Oh, hi there, in the manga... tbh, I don't think we know where you are in the manga.

You're about to stop smiling very, very soon

: ' )

Also, ngl, The Bravery is growing on me a little bit. It has that nostalgic feel to it, y'know? It reminds me about SAO's Crossing Field a little.

[golbrocklovely]

so this video was interesting to me for a lot of reasons. i definitely liked it more, i think, than tommy and foolish's but i think that's also bc so much more happened.

first off, i think the girls did excellent for their first investigation. they weren't too freaked out, even tho they had every right to be, and i liked their overall presence in the video. they seem pretty cool :)

now… as for the place they went to….

ngl, it seemed a bit freaky, for sure. i'm a little confused how all of the documentation of a place can be burned and yet ppl still know everything about it, but i digress lol

god knows there's probably some stuff that slipped thru the cracks and found it's way into history books.

i think the main issue i had with this video is the lack of physical evidence. i'm not one to discount other ppl's experiences. i believe them all when they say they felt something was there, or was watching them, or they saw something that the camera didn't catch. i'm not gonna argue that.

what i am gonna argue is this: if you truly feel like you are hearing things when no one else is, feeling touched or pressure on your body…. leave. step outside and center yourself. and if it seems to be a reoccurring issue, don't stay there. i feel terrible for niki bc she was getting the worse of it. but girl… walk outside. there's no way i would be chilling in a set of caves allowing ghosts to cop a feel for an hour lol i would be such a bitch about it, they would want me out of those caves asap.

but she's nicer than me so i get why she stayed.

i just feel like in places like that, where it's mostly feelings rather than evidence like devices going off, it becomes an echo chamber. one person freaks out, and bc you care about them, you start freaking out as well. and so on and so forth. and i think that's why investigations that take place in those type of locations, you need to have some form of grounding exercise or something that can center you. and not just being saged outside before walking in.

i always carry or have on two crystal necklaces that i've had for years now. i don't even know if they're real crystals, but bc they make me feel at peace, i make sure to always have them with me regardless. and i think bc none of them had anything like that, things spiraled very fast.

hell, i usually have my crystals on when i do tarot, let alone if i went into a place like this.

i don't fault any of them (except maybe snc bc they should know better by now) for not knowing what to do in situations like this. i can only imagine how fucking weird it must have felt.

the only point i want to argue is that when they were talking about "oh i feel this pressure on my chest, like it's hard to breathe"…. you're hundreds of feet down in the earth. that's gonna happen. the air in the caves is probably from the 1800s. literally body juice (ew) is leaking into the caves. it's not the healthiest air down there.

but aside from all of that, i think the video was really good. the estes methods were both interesting and creepy all at the same time. i hate when colby did the estes method and it was all sexual and pervy… no thanks. i also DESPISE that colby went into a trance for a minute when they went down into the lowest part, or hell. absolutely FUCK NO BABYYYY lol

i think the medium/guide they had was an interesting character, and i feel bad that she felt so emotional towards whatever was following them. also, it was very weird to see something want to attack colby, bc that usually happens to sam. so… i wonder why that was the case. but i have an idea as to why that happened (i'm gonna be answering an ask that talks about it in case you want to know).

overall, great video. enjoyed the collab. maybe if snc are in the uk again, they can collab with niki and gee. can't wait for the next video, which should be daz !

let me know what you guys thought about the video :)

[snickerdoodlles]

✨What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

(prev) hmm, maybe Hair-Trigger? like, it got a good response, i'm very grateful to everyone who's read it ❤❤❤ i don't mean in a 'im looking for more hits' sort of way, i just really love Porsche & Kim as a duo and spin them around in my head like a shiny rock all the time. this mostly manifests in me spamming tortoise with Kim & Porsche snippets and thoughts that never seem to flesh out into proper fics, so Hair-Trigger has a special spot in my heart because it's my one finished Porsche & Kim fic and I want everyone to look at Porsche being extremely fond of Kim and Kim feeling all sorts of things about how fond Porsche seems to be of him (surely???? this is a trick????? he is so nice and smiley????????? a mystery)

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

i like them all!! i genuinely enjoy all "types" of comments for different reasons, it feels weird to rank them against each other. so long as the comment is excited to engage with me/gush over idiot nerds together, i'm excited to answer and chat with them (although, i am. very behind on my inbox rn. hjghjg im sorry friends, i promise i will respond even tho it might be v late 😂💦)

💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?

I've actually been rewriting a *checks date* 5.5 yr old yoi WIP (*winces*) for a while now. very slow as my attention gets drawn away, but i love epistolary fic and there's a funny satisfaction without pressure to re-writing it.

but the story rewrite that actually has been sitting on my head for...forever really, is my ft story Jinxed. i was very new to fandom/writing fic when i first posted it, and at the time i'd just posted what i wrote and then went "...wait, how the fuck do you write a multi-chapter story???" and i really psyched myself out of posting more for it.

however, it's always like...sat in the back of my head, even after the fandom bullshit and when ft went to shit. because i just...don't like soulmate/soulmark AUs. 😅 the reasons behind my dislike for the trope are uh...kinda long and extensive actually, so i'll save that for a different post if anyone cares enough to ask, but the premise in this story of two girls with mismatched timers who fall in love and choose each other anyways is one i'm extremely drawn to. and i'm still like, figuring out how to write long stories, and i'm never going to write again for ft, so whenever i look over the old story drafts and notes, i'm actually thinking about it as an original story. not one i've started and maybe i'll stumble into a fandom that i want to apply this premise to, but...after i figure out long-form stories, i really want to swing by this one again, if simply to have it stop haunting my brain every few months.

(rest under the cut because i am rambly lol)

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

hmm Silver for Truth is the obvious one since i whined about it taking a yr+ to write, but i think everyone understands when i say Tawan is an annoying ass bitch to write.

i'm actually going to cheat and say the freezer!Kim WIP i'm writing with @majestictortoise. there's a few different POVs in this story and one of them is Porsche's POV, and there is something about Porsche's POV specifically that i find very hard to capture. even when i know what i want from his arc and character struggles, post-canon Porsche carries around some conflicting beliefs and mindsets that i find really tricky to write, plus he's also a guy of action who's been forced to a standstill and i want to capture that trapped feeling without making it obnoxious. he's just tricky to me in a way that other characters aren't. (i actually ran into this issue with Hair-Trigger too, except it wasn't so hard because that's a fic about him Doing A Thing He Wants To Do, which is why i was able to write it within the timeframe i did. oh Porsche, ilu, why do u stick in my head so. orz)

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

everything? idk, my reaction after i post a fic is to either Stare At My Inbox or desperately try to distract myself from the fact that i Posted A Fic, which really go to show how secure i feel about my writing 😂 i try very hard not to let a fic's reception get to me when i post because i've been down that road and it's really bad for me. all fic i post is fic for me, but i haven't hit the carefree attitude of "idc what you think, its for me first and foremost" yet.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

there's nothing that makes me want to give up on writing specifically. i wail and cry when stuff isn't flowing right, but like. so i had an irl thing run me over like a truck april/may of this year and it's bullshit kept spilling out through june and july too, so i had like no time or energy to write or even spend much time on fandom stuff for four months, and i went absolutely bananas. i need to do something creative to feel good, and writing is my favorite of those.

posting...posting is a different story 😂 weirdly if im chasing the high of posting a fic/the high of comments on fic, i dont like to post as much. the hill in my head is too much to get around, so that ig.

🌿how does creating make you feel?

*points up*

also prev

🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?

...this is such a weird question lmao (not u, the person who made the question list should have deleted this). i've always found writing as a good way of examining my internal biases and preconceptions i might not have otherwise had opportunity to find and reflect upon so clearly, and i'm going to leave it at that.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

fuck if i know what my writing style is 😂

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

*curls up in more shy* hmm, i really like reading my own stories. like, i always have cyclic periods of "oh god this is garbage what the fuck was i thinking" feelings for each of my fics, but i know now that feeling is brief and it'll be gone soon enough and it will stay gone longer than it comes. the person who reads my stories the most is me, and the fact that i want to go back to read them again is really important to me.

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

i don't think i linger so much on the actual posting of the fic, but i return to my fics a lot and i've also started paying more attention to how much i post. i'm trying to find a balance between acknowledging that i posted stories vs "oh god, im not posting ENOUGH," but back at the turn of this year, i was really bummed that i didn't get as much posted during december as i had set out to do, specifically because i felt like 2021 had been a really strong year and i'd let myself down not finishing as many fics in 2022. then i actually checked my AO3 stats for 2021 to 2022, and realized i'd posted 4x as much in 2022 than i had in 2021. over 100k words altogether even!

i think i'm getting off topic, but between rereading my own stuff pretty frequently and trying to get a better grasp on how much i've actually posted vs what's in my head, i think i celebrate pretty often? idk 😂

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

characters!!! everything's built around the characters. i love worldbuilding, making up worlds is a lot of fun, but i worldbuild through the lens of "what am i interested in?" (which starts with characters) and "how does this affect x?" (because if it doesn't matter to/affect the character, it shouldn't be a priority to me). similarly, plots exist for me to put Specific Guys Into Situations. a plot can be objectively interesting, but i'm not going to stick to it if i don't care about the people going thru it, my brain just doesn't focus like that.

the actual writing of the story is lowest priority on my list. there's a lot of writing types i don't like, but i can muscle thru a lot in the name of a good cast or plot. similarly, i don't give a flying fuck how pretty or polished a writer thinks their sentences are, if the actual story is boring or OOC, i am not reading it. or i am reading it and bitching extensively in friends DMs, which is worse. 😂

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

honestly, hard for me to answer because i'm actively trying not to think about what sort of response i do get. i guess one that still amuses me quite a bit is the response to my fic Shining Dishonesty (howls moving castle AU for haikyuu!!). i love this story to bits and i really love the comments i have on it, but it's weird/funny to me because it's my most recommended and mentioned fic on twitter, but it's one of my lowest in terms of kudos & comments. idk what's up with that 😂

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

*big shrug emoji* nothing that comes to mind???

maybe Silver for Truth, just a little bit???? everyone got the message of "get fucked Tawan" but there was also a little more pity for Tawan than i'd expected. like, not really, because Tawan's annoying, but i don't know that everyone quite caught Khun's trap for Tawan in it. Tawan could've completely turned things around for Vegas and ruined Kinn's lie by confessing his own failures/betrayals and accepting the consequences, except Tawan puts himself before all others, even someone he claims to love.

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

honestly? i don't remember the specific writing issues once something is done. even for something that takes me a while to write. usually my writing hang-ups are related to irl stressors. Pitch It was an extremely hard fic for me to write, but that was because it had a deadline attached to it while i was also trying to come up with money for a new car after my previous one was totaled 😂 and while i approach all stories with a vague plot in mind, it's purposefully vague so i can adapt to where's best for the story to go. that's the part i look forward to the most when writing lol.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

lol i don't even have to sort my stories to know which one is my least number of hits/kudos. it's by dawn's early light, which i wrote for the bnha myths zine, and it is literally one of my favorite fics i've ever written. there's some stuff i would've done differently now, but i liked it when i finished it, i liked even thru that fucking project's mess, and i liked it enough to post it after the project was finished, and that is probably the highest praises i can give that particular fic.

(this response probably doesn't make much sense to anyone who hasn't participated in a zine before and i'm not going to burden you with context if you haven't, but like. trust me. that's saying a lot 😂)

🍭why did you start writing?

to make a dick joke. i haven't changed.

💎why is writing important to you?

it's just fun. i really like doing it and i really like connecting with people over it/through it.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

i re-read the story about a bajillion times in that first week. you'd think i'd be sick of it by the time it's posted, but the satisfaction of having finished something changes the way i read it and i just bask in that.

📡why is writing and sharing your writing important for fandom?

another terrible question in this otherwise nice questions list.

i like it, so i do it, and i'm lucky enough to have made friends through it.

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

i'm excited if anyone wants to make a podfic of my work and i give general permission for it, but it's not something i seek out specifically. i have very bad ears, it just doesn't really cross my mind.

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

*points up however many questions ago* it's very fulfilling for me and i like it a lot. i'm lucky enough to have also made connections to others by way of writing, but first and foremost is i enjoy the actual act of it.

💋when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

maybe? idk, i leave comments because i like to leave comments. i like hearing back, but its not like im leaving a comment looking for that. wrong mindset for this question, u know?

☯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?

*sighs* this fucking questionnaire maker lmao.

responding to fics is fun for everyone. it's a great way to make new friends if that's the fandom experience you're hoping for (same goes for responding to edits, art, etc). if you're anxious to start talking to people or leaving comments or whatever, take the babysteps you need to try to push and expand your comfort zone. and be gentle on yourself -- there's no "right" way to interact with fandom, and you don't have to be perfect at what you want to do right away either.

but if that's not the way you want to interact with fandom, you don't have to. there's nothing wrong with "lurking" and frankly i care about my stuff being enjoyed (even if i never hear about it!), not the ~proper~ way to be in fandom or whatever. furthermore, my healthy fandom experience is regulating and maintaining my own reactions to the reception (or lack of) i get when i post so that it stays fulfilling for me, and that's how i create my healthy fandom experience.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

mostly i look inwards to see what exactly im dissatisfied with and examine why. there's plenty of stuff that i wish had a bigger reception, but i focus on things that i can control (what im happy with in a story, what i enjoyed about the process, talking about it more in my own blog space so people can choose to engage or ignore, etc) and push myself to that framework of mind. the worst thing you can do is focus on things you can't control, especially something as random and fickle as other people's reactions or a post/story hitting the trend wave just right.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

timeloop AU!! (prev)

timeloop AU will be 3 chapters + an epilogue. first chapter is Kim POV, the second one is Big POV, and third is Chay POV. Kim is the first one trapped in the timeloop. Big joins him later. Chay never does.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

in my fic Single Star Review, Khun goes to university and then starts seeking extra therapy help. i am Extremely excited for this one, but one of my favorite-favorite parts of it is Khun dismissively says "it's not like i can call Kim and gossip about boys" and Flop (the therapist, no that's not actually his name) asks Khun "why not" and Khun stares through a wall for a solid three minutes realizing hey, he CAN call Kim to talk about boys actually.

-later that night-

Khun: Kim! Kimmy-Kim my littlest kin! forget your other plans, tonight we are painting our nails and gossiping about BOYS

Kim: what the fuck

Khun: my therapist thinks i should try talking to you about stuff

Kim: THERAPIST?!

Khun: THAT'S NOT THE IMPORTANT PART HOW DO I HANDLE HAVING A CRUSH

(Kim is, ofc, over the moon and extremely excited when his brain catches up with his ears, even though he's a total little brother about it.)

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Red Line fic is the first installment of a 4-fic series (tortoise is laughing at me for thinking it'd stop with 1). mostly because it immediately dived into one of my favorite variations for how Chay kills Korn.

Korn's death is not a fix-it.

[zerobaseonefics]

tw: rape, attempt and idk what else??

so basically my depression worsened and i had an attempt on wednesday, this week. school is too much already and it barely started, my whole family is a problem and my friends(?) are making jokes about me which i find somehow funny but it also hurts me

my family is talking about how my breasts grow so fast and how they are bigger than most of the women in my family and even men are saying this which makes me uncomfortable… my parents also keep telling me if i keep misbehaving (sleeping when its daytime) i will be sent to my family in vietnam (im not that close with them because theyre pretty much aggressive and i’m bad at speaking vietnamese, they can’t speak polish, so it’s hard to communicate)

the jokes my friends(?) make are about how a guy almost raped me but i managed to push him off of me.. the jokes are like “omg youre like literally our hulk” etc. // i do find the jokes funny sometimes but then i think about the time it happened and i feel grossed out by myself and feel like crying

also all the panic attacks i had in the recent weeks are all too much.. and it’s too much pressure thinking about everything at once, i just can’t sort it out in my head

even tho my problems may not be that serious, i still can’t handle them anymore. thank you for “listening”to me, i’m really thankful for you<33

~🤍

first of all, i know it's hard to keep that in mind sometimes, and that's why i want to remind you that you should never make a hierarchy of problems. your problems ARE serious, and you should not delegitimize them like that. your feelings are valid no matter what your issue is, if it makes you feel that way then there is a reason and it's your right to be hurt.

i'm genuinely pissed off hearing about the comments on your body from your family 💀 as i hit puberty very young, i also had that problem of adults making inappropriate remarks on it, and i know how it hurts and can mess with your self esteem and the way you feel in your body. avoid the people who make this kind of comments as much as you can. depending on the links you have with your family, try and tell them that it makes you uncomfortable. tell the women in your family especially that it's even worse when it's men and hopefully they will stand up for you if they ever tell you something about it in front of them. this is so annoying why do they care about your body like that 💀

about your friends and their jokes!! even if it can make you laugh sometimes, it's better to tell them straight that you don't like it. if you let them get away with it for too long, they might not understand why you're against it when you used to laught about it. maybe they don't mean any harm, but if they're actual good friends they'll respect you and stop with these jokes. if they are not, i guarantee you that you'll be better off without them. you're very strong, okay? what happened to you when you got assaulted is in no way your fault and it is not taking away your value. don't forget i call you pure >:(

as for the panick attacks, do you have any methods to calm them down?? as someone who suffers from it as well, i had a time when i was younger where they were very frequent. i have less now because i found some methods that help me calm down easier. if you can, press your back against something cold, a wall for example. if you're not alone, try to put your hand on a friend's chest to feel the way they are breathing and try to match your breathing with their. also, i have a friend who put their face in a huge bowl of water. try these next time you have a panick attack, and if doesn't work, look for other ones! there is surely one that will work for you.

i assume you're much younger than me so i will treat you as a little sibling and talk to you according to my experiences as someone who went through similar things as you. if you ever wanna talk about anything, i will always take my time to answer to you and try to give you advices. take care of you, you're valuable, and you should never hurt yourself <3 better days are surely waiting for you in the future, and it would be a shame to miss them, right?

please come back to me at least once a week so i can make sure you're doing good >:( take care, pure 🩶

[livvyofthelake]

random question but do u have any recs for good YA books? ive started like doing student assistant stuff for my schools librarian so ive been reading a lot of books from there in my free time. usually i gravitate towards the classics but ive started really reading YA for the first time and im honestly really liking it. i already finished speak and the hate u give and my heart and other black holes and some other popular ones and wanna know if theres any particular YA you like that i should try. or i'll even take middle grade recs too if there are any good ones that you can think of

again i know this is a random question lol ive just seen you sometimes posting abt YA and middle grade and i trust your judgement so i figured why not ask😭 no pressure for a reply tho

ok sorry it's taken me like 2 weeksish to answer i've been like. in some kind of torment nexus or something idk. it happens! anyway! any ya i have to recommend is gonna be at least 8 years old at this point i fear so i can't exactly give current recommendations but i mean it's not as if libraries don't have older books so i guess it's fine <3 anyway if you want to read a series there is always the mortal instruments of course.... would not be me if i didn't throw that out there... not the entire shadowhunter chronicles that would be an insane thing to recommend to a person i've never done that and i wouldn't unless i was speaking to a 13 year old who has that kind of stamina and passion. but the mortal instruments books 1-3 is actually a really great trilogy. and i know there's 6 books but you can read 1-3 as a trilogy it's set up weird like that. moving on. idk about genres you like but given your examples i'm getting a contemporary fiction vibe. so here's some of my favorite ya books like that i read in high school that actually stood the test of time for me and i still hold in high esteem and would recommend unlike say. john green's paper towns (not necessarily hating on paper towns or john green. but i just personally would not recommend his work... it doesn't stick out to me...sorry john) anyway here's a list

the sky is everywhere by jandy nelson. it's about a girl grieving the loss of her sister and there's romance and it's well written if you like a sort of camp-esque purple prose writing style, which jandy nelson does in a way that would be annoying if she wasn't so good at it. i'd technically recommend her other books but this is the one i'd say to start with it's her first and it's definitely the one with the most chill version of that writing style. like just in case you find it ridiculous the sky is everywhere is the toned down version

i am the messenger by markus zusak. insane book. maybe not as good as the book thief which is his popular one but still solid. take this rec with a grain of salt though because this was my favorite book in ninth grade and i don't actually know 100% if i just have a nostalgic fondness for it or if it was actually that good

hacking harvard by robin wasserman. insane silly fun book about a group of guys in like 2007 trying to scam some deadbeat kid into harvard to win a bet. it was awesome

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe by benjamin alire sáenz. have to get ari in this list that's literally my buddy ari.... you have most likely heard of this one before i won't bore you with a description

the upside of unrequited by becky albertalli. same author as simon vs the homo sapiens agenda, but this one's better. source: dude just trust me....

one of us is lying by karen mcmanus. i will not lie to you i didn't like this book and i don't think it's good. however. it was memorable. it was SOMETHING. i have read manyyyyy books in my day i do not remember a lot of them but this one i remember clear as day because it was so like. kinda bad... my intro to the world of the mid murder mystery.... cannot deny the impact. for an EXPERIENCE this is the book

in terms of middle grade i fear i have not much to say on the subject of contemporary fiction in middle grade... i think all the middle grade i've ever read in my life is fantasy or historical mystery or something weird idk. but i love the sisters grimm series a lot and i think it should have been as big as percy jackson or harry potter if we lived in a world where books could have female leads and still be considered gender neutral and get popular with all kids regardless of gender. alas i guess young boys just don't want to get their asses up and read about girls. even though it's literally not written For Girls it's written exactly like every other gender neutral kids book series. it's just like percy jackson. the author is literally a man. we live in a society

[thebleedingeffect]

Hi I’m very late to the party BUT I just saw this post (https://www.tumblr.com/thebleedingeffect/761565830330925056/hi-hello-hello-can-someone-please-ask-me-about-how) despite it being days old and. If you are still wanting to talk I am wanting to listen!!!! No pressure tho :-)

HIIIIIIII EMIL <33 AND YES I WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS SOSOSOSSO BAD, THANK YOU FOR ASKING !!! Apologies that it took me a second though to answer this, I fell asleep just as I got it and then I had to go do some irl responsibilities... but I'm here now and ready to lose my mind!

So, just to preface this and give some more depth to this rabbit hole I'm about to go down, I want to say of just how fascinating it is to me whenever Zelda and Link parallel each other. Botw is the most overt example of this, at least in my opinion, but sksw, oot, and ww are also very good examples of this trend. And just to be clear, it's a very good trend! The idea of Link and Zelda mirroring each other and their journeys, struggles, and clear parallels while being so apart for one another? It's brilliant and genuinely one of my favorite things whenever it comes to thinking about any Link and Zelda dynamic. From sksw Link and Zelda having a very clear emotional journey entirely separate from each other where they're forced to grow up from forces much larger than them. From oot Link and Zelda being mirrors of the lose of innocence, loneliness, and sacrifice in the face of a world that will never remember just what you gave up. From ww Link and Zelda and how the ultimate fate of hyrule forces them into these predestined roles that they eventually break out of, symbolizing the death of the old hyrule.

Which is why tp Link and Zelda are so fascinating to me, because they are the one exception to this rule.

From the beginning of the game, hyrule and the princess Zelda are introduced as this far-away, near untouchable force. There's the sort of sense that the castle, and therefore Zelda, is larger than life and the sheer power and regality of her reflects that. Put that in comparison to Link, who's introduced by sitting next to a lake, being a normal guy who lives in a simple village, and who does the equivalent of chores for other people. How they're both introduced is fascinating because it puts them at direct opposition of each other's world, they couldn't have been more different from the start if they tried. Link, who's very much a part of the community and his presence is reflected back onto so many of the side characters throughout the story. Zelda, who's the princess of hyrule and even accepts surrender in the face of saving her own people, but there's an undeniable distance that puts her apart from her and her people.

Part of me believes that the communities that surround both Link and Zelda are sort of reflections of their own selves. Ordon and the rebellion are very much freedom fighters who are intensely concerned with protecting their own and their protectiveness reflects just how much they care about each other on an individual level. Castle town is strangely... distant, almost absent, and seem intensely focused on themselves or keeping the peace. Castle town is an undeniable symbol of prestige, privilege, and wealth as well as sitting right in the shadow of the crown of hyrule, the castle itself. Where each of the corners effect each other throughout the rest of hyrule, castle town is pretty isolated and does not concern itself with the struggles of what's outside its walls, with the exception of the rebellion. This does not mean that Zelda is secretly a cruel, indifferent, or selfish person, but to me, it simply illustrates just how deep her isolation runs. The closest person that Zelda is ever shown to be with is Midna, and even then, Midna still had an entire kingdom and even Link by her side. Between the three of them, I would say that Zelda is most definitely the one most starved for connections outside of her station.

In any other loz game, this would probably be an introduction to Link and Zelda beginning to fall by each other's side and either a sort of alliance or understanding is formed from the difficulties of their own shared journey. But, simply put, that never happens. This Link and Zelda are probably the most distant incarnations to each other that have existed thus far. They're so much of opposites and each have their own issues with isolation, loneliness, abandonment, and belonging, that both parallel but also deeply clash with one another. In my mind, I've always believed that tp Zelda has had the idea forced upon her that she is the literal reflection of the kingdom and should act as such. She's the princess, the pride of hyrule, and her behavior and relations towards others should be reflective of her status. Does she truly believe she's above everyone else and should be treated like royalty at all times? No, but she holds herself to such intense standards that it's just hard for her to sympathize and have an equal respect/trust relationship with most anyone.

That's why she connects with Midna so well because, out of everyone, Midna is the most likely one who would understand the struggles of being the lone ruler to a struggling kingdom. Midna is easily relatable as they share the same struggles, thus Zelda feels more at ease as she doesn't have to risk any sort of uncomfortable vulnerability that she's been taught is unbecoming of her station. She can't risk any sort of weakness as she is the very pillar of the kingdom, and Midna is, sadly, the best shot she ever had at having someone who understood her with so few words spoken.

All of this comes back to the idea of tp Zelda and Link having such a hard time understanding, sympathizing, and getting along, at least in my mind, because they've been kept separate and have their own problems that get in the way of them connecting.

Link, in particular, I think struggles heavily with the burden of responsibility and the fact that he truly does not feel like he belongs in either hyrule or Ordon after the events of the game. He's changed to much, seen to much, has bled far to much to ever go back to the life he once lived with a near care-free nature that seems so alien to him now. He feels like he must hide the true scope of just how much he's changed because, to the world, he's either the hero or the small town boy. He's one or the other, he finds that he cannot be both, and part of him doesn't want to be either of them. Link is stuck in a situation where he has not only fulfilled his role, but he has surpassed it, and just like how Zelda in confined to her role as princess... Link begins to be confined to his role as hero. A role that he took up because there was no one else and he truly did want to help and save people, but will he be allowed to be his own person once the dust settles? Will he be allowed to breath when a hyrule who has just escaped a near calamity is so desperate for the two beacons of hyrule?

This is interesting to me because Zelda's and Link's situations either contrast sharply or directly mirror each other, but their own differences make it so, so incredibly hard for them to understand each other. In a way, Midna was the best thing for them as she was the sort of bridge between them, but with her gone? Their loss, grief, feeling of abandonment, and their own crushing sense of responsibility on their shoulders means that it's just so hard for them to sympathize and understand each other. In my personal interpretation of the both of them, I think Zelda is desperate for things to go back to "how they used to be" so that she can ignore the own pit of longing and loneliness that she carries now that Midna is gone. The kingdom was saved, her people are now desperate for a sense of stability and comradery, and it's the perfect distraction that she needs to push down her own feelings. After all, she's the princess first and human being second, so it's just easy for her to lose herself in the demands of her own people and let her own needs fester inside her.

But Link? Link just cannot pretend that everything is fine and that everything will be okay if it all goes back to normal. In a strange sort of way, Link is the more emotionally honest one by saying that he just can't be the same farm boy as much as he can't be a knight of hyrule. Link knows this about himself, as much as he hates the truth, and I also really like the idea that Link is one of the few people who approaches Zelda like a person first before he ever approaches her like a princess. It's that unspoken breach of how she carries herself and for what the world has deemed her greatest purpose to be, that immediately puts her on edge. Link hates being spoken to like "the hero" and as such, refuses to approach Zelda with the same formality since it's so strange and uncomfortable to him.

It's all of this and more that eventually spirals into them having such a hard time speaking and even interacting with other. Their lives, their worldviews, how they approach grief and responsibility, and the inherent opposite nature of how they've processed their own trauma- makes their relationship extremely rocky. All of their sharpened edges clash with other in their most vulnerable places, and it doesn't help that they are each other's most painful reminder of the troubles they've endured. So, in a way, they still do mirror each other, but in such a way that leaves them so incompatible because they're so stuck in their own hurt and worrying for others- that they just cannot bridge the gap of misunderstanding and hurt on their own. It doesn't exactly help that so much of their own self-worth is tied up around in "serving" others that in order to help each other, they would either have to be painfully vulnerable or sacrifice their own happiness and comfort! One demands for everything to go back to how it was, so that she can ignore the pain in her heart, as if it never existed in the first place. The other demands for a home, to be his own person, to be more than the legacy that was forced upon him, at the same time as knowing that he can never go back to the life he was once so happy with.

One demands for the past, the other wants another future.

[lafiloyahl]

Kripint genetics and biology

I’ll dig deeper on how genetics work for these guys, as well as starting with some more of their biology.

As you now know, kripints are shapeshifters, they can disguise as any being they’ve tasted the blood of. However, the main form kripints are born with cannot change at all, this is known as true form

Disguise biology

*For how long and in which circumstances can kripints keep a disguise?*

The short answer is: for as long as they want and on pretty much any circumstances.

They can keep their disguises while they sleep, during stressful situations and even during mating (this is a biological adaptation since their bodies need to perfectly mimic the reproductive methods of the species they’re trying to breed with).

The only exceptions are:

-When having impaired senses due to consuming substances (such as alcohol or drugs). They need to get to the territory of impaired tho; come on, one beer is not gonna make Memo show his pretty scales, but if they’re drunk then there’s a big chance their bodies will mess up the disguise. This can be completely or partial.

-During illnesses. Maintaining a disguise implies maintaining a certain level of energy. Is not extremely tiring, and becomes easier the more the kripint does it. They can keep it awake and asleep as long as they get enough sleeping and food. But when it comes to illnesses, where the body uses all energy to work on recovering, keeping a disguise is impossible. *(More on kripint illnesses later)*

Genetics

Genetics in kripints are similar to humans, meaning that kripints can be born on their true form with traits from their parents, grandparents, great grandparents and up to the fifth generation. The most usual is for them to be a mix from their two families and the environment.

*What does this mean and how does it work?*

Well, you already know that kripints can adapt to any environment by shapeshifting into the species that inhabit it; however, this also applies to their true forms. Once a kripint is pregnant, the environment where they inhabit while the fetus is developing will likely impact on their image; more specifically: the type of fur and keratin constructs.

*This mean, for example, that two feathered kripints, from completely feathered families could have a cub with thick rocky scales and a chubby body if they’re living on the volcanic region*

Following this example, there’s a big chance most kripints born in human towns on earth are hair-type, since human towns tend to not be in climates extreme enough to require any different type.

*Is this my child?*

I hear what you’re thinking: if kripints can have offspring so different to the parents, can they then cheat and give birth to an affair baby?

Well, it would be basically impossible. Kripints actually watch the moment their two **seeds** mix and accept each other, then when one of the two receivers the **fertilized seed**.

As I explained before, once the pouch of a kripint closes with a fertilized seed inside, it’s nearly impossible to open, except for birth or in the case of a miscarriage, which are very uncommon for kripints, basically, the pregnant kripint needs to almost die before anything could happen to the fetus.

*Is it possible then to baby-trap a kripint?*

Well, yes and no.

First of all, I need to explain that kripints can willingly do their special dance for reproduction or just for fun.

The dance only produces a seed if the kripint consciously produces one. Even if the pouch opens, even if they reach *ahem* “total happiness”, the kripint cannot accidentally produce a seed.

This includes impaired senses. It’s an evolutionary trait to prevent unwanted pregnancies. So a drunk kripint will be completely unable to produce a seed during a dance.

*Because of this, kripints must have a serious talk with their mates before even having a dance*

How can they get baby trapped then? Short answer: peer pressure.

You see, unlike humans who either produce one egg per month approx and go through periods or have a constant production ready, kripints only produce seeds during the dance.

*So, they don’t go through any bad secondary effects from producing their damn seeds like us?*

Hahah, they actually do! Though, only if their seed is not fertilized.

If the seed is fertilized, then they only have the bad secondary effects of pregnancy. But if the seed is not, then it will stay around the kripint for 3 to 5 days.

During those days, the pouch will remain open, and the kripint will go through serious cramps, headaches, dizziness and will have a very hard time eating. They also won’t be able to have anything solid, only blood, and just a little bit.

The seed will also gradually lose its brightness until it completely dissolves (that’s when the pouch finally closes and the kripint can finally go back to normal).

During this process, the more time it passes, the more possible it is for the baby kripint to come out with some illness or condition if the seed does get fertilized by another kripint.

*So, kripints can use this to force their mate into producing a seed to fertilize theirs asap*

This is a serious crime in Stila

Very few kripints used to even attempt this, because they knew that then the mate could just escape (which is quite easy since those who haven’t produce a seed can just immediately close their pouches and the one with the seed will not be able to chase in their state). Then, the other kripints would keep the perpetrator locked and prosecuted. This could mark a kripint for their whole lives as untrustworthy on the best case scenario. (More on crime and punishment later).

Unfortunately, although is still a taboo for most kripints, some of the most vile and obsessive families of the group that wants to repopulate the planet, have begun to force their adults into producing seeds against their will. Because of this, and many other things, a lot of young kripints keep leaving this obsessive repopulation groups and instead go to the ones who try to keep their culture (or straight up leave the planet to join the other group).

Kripints can be infertile tho. Is not common, but it happens. This is not a taboo for their normal culture, those are deemed just as normal as any other kripint. But the repopulation obsessive ones have recently started to see it as a curse.